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Getting To Know You - Day 30 
4th-Feb-2011 07:54 pm
James - thinky thoughts
Day 01 - Introduction
Day 02 – Your first love, in great detail
Day 03 – Your parents, in great detail
Day 04 – What you ate today, in great detail
Day 05 – Your definition of love, in great detail
Day 06 – Your day, in great detail
Day 07 – Your best friend, in great detail
Day 08 – A moment, in great detail
Day 09 – Your beliefs, in great detail
Day 10 – What you wore today, in great detail
Day 11 – Your siblings, in great detail
Day 12 – What’s in your bag, in great detail
Day 13 – This week, in great detail
Day 14 – What you wore today, in great detail
Day 15 – Your dreams, in great detail
Day 16 – Your first kiss, in great detail - N/A
Day 17 – Your favorite memory, in great detail
Day 18 – Your favorite birthday, in great detail
Day 19 – Something you regret, in great detail
Day 20 – This month, in great detail
Day 21 – Another moment, in great detail
Day 22 – Something that upsets you, in great detail
Day 23 – Something that makes you feel better, in great detail
Day 24 – Something that makes you cry, in great detail
Day 25 – A first, in great detail
Day 26 – Your fears, in great detail
Day 27 – Your favorite place, in great detail
Day 28 – Something that you miss, in great detail
Day 29 – Your aspirations, in great detail

Day 30 – One last moment, in great detail

I know I took more a month .... but here we are at the end of this meme.  I don't think I've learnt much about myself ... and probably you haven't either.

As I said earlir life is made of moments ... good and bad.  And I think it's something we should remember.

On a negative side, I was pushed in a swimming pool (by a teacher!) .... a moment in time, that has left me petrified of water.  Although I swim (and shower) I have to be in control, or I leave the area.  The same with bullying ... as I said earlier this week, I can't make friends in RL ... I am scared of being hurt.  Those moments of pain years ago still affect me.

However I suppose I can be positve and said my choice to commit my life to God took a moment, but is my life now.

I believe in "love at first sight"

So ... moments, they may not seem much, but they have a total (and everlasting) effect.

4th-Feb-2011 07:58 pm (UTC)
So ... moments, they may not seem much, but they have a total (and everlasting) effect.

You're absolutely right about this.

I'm so sorry that you had troubles with bullying and mean teachers! It's a testimony to your character that even though those moments had an impact, you've risen above the bad/negative things and choose to live a happy, positive life. You're also very courageous to share such things with us!

Much love to you, Deborah!

4th-Feb-2011 08:09 pm (UTC)
Thank you - although I don't think I'll ever be able to get through the problems I have, in now being able to mention them I've come a long way ... thanks in a great part to my wonderful LJ friends .... your support is amazing.

Thank you

*hugs tight*
4th-Feb-2011 09:12 pm (UTC)
A teacher pushed you in?

That's horrid

I fell off a pier into the sea at the age of about 5 and it was my father who jumped off the pier after me and got me out! I was a dangerous child and remained totally unfraid of water much to my parents despair

You've done so well to be swimming after that experience!

Also with the bullying

Look how far you've come! Going to London to that first gig and you *did* make friends!

So give yourself a pat on the back
5th-Feb-2011 09:55 am (UTC)
Yes, a swimming teacher! Our school had a rule, you swam every week till you could do 1 length and jump in at the deap end. I did a hesitant length and then we all had to do the jump ... something made me freeze, so the teacher pushed!

It took me a few weeks to even walk into the shallow end holding another teachers hand ... fortunately the Head of Games had seen it happen ... she suggested I went to these other lessons - a differnet teacher, He was great ... but it took him 6 months for me to swim out of my depth ... and another month or so to actually get me in the deep end ... but, he was patient. I still swim next to the edge of a pool ... I can't believe that I was 14 when that happened and I still can't "let go" ... even though I swim regularily.

When I shower, and was my hair, I have to have a hand on the wall ... same fear.

Oh, yes, I have some good friends ... but still find it hard to actually be relaxed among people ... if people approach me I'm fine, but no way can I walk up to them ... even those I know well! I'm like that in Church etc ... so me walking to you those couple of years ago ... still shocks me ... Thank you Deb! (or is it the power of James!!!!?)
4th-Feb-2011 10:25 pm (UTC)
Those moments will affect you in ways and time to come. I was also bullied as a child and it has taken me years to be somewhat happy with myself. As a course of that I made some bad choices but those also gave me good moments. Good versus bad. Hopefully the Good moments are more then the bad at the end.

I admire you greatly for overcoming some of your fears such as swimming. We are alike a lot Deborah and I hope to keep your friendship for a long time. *HUGS*
5th-Feb-2011 09:58 am (UTC)
Thanks Astrid - for years I couldn't even say the word 2bully" ... but having good friends has helped ... and in having friends, I've realised that many people had similar situations ... so that has made me more determined to speak out. In doing so I learn to accept ... even though, as I just told Deb, I still can't approach people ... even though at a James gig it is a bit easier for me (the power of James-squeeeeeee!!)

Your friendship is very special to me, as well.
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