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Because Everyone Needs Dreams.
I'm Annoyed .... 
19th-Mar-2010 08:43 am
Adventure before dementia

.... With my subconscious!

Even when asleep my dreams managed to "get" me and kill what little self esteem I have! 


What doubly annoys me is that I never remember those "good" dreams that everyone is assured to have.


Oh well - too much to ponder on a Friday morning!  And, as I went to bed with damp hair, I ought to try to sort out the bird's nest now sitting on my head, rather than battle "me" ... all in all a much easier option!

Hope your Friday morning started better than mine!

Weekend soon - and I am going to Tim and Claire's tomorrow to help them celebrate their 20th wedding anniversary - so I shall focus on that, and how amazingly happy they still are!


19th-Mar-2010 09:57 am (UTC)
Hating yourself is an easy thing to do. Our mind is predisposed to do so, to help us improve ourselves. But times have changed and we have lots more time, than trying to survive and thus self loathing is at an all time high. With the commercial industries telling us we are not perfect constantly, we are all racked to believe there is nothing right with us.

These verses come to mind:

Matthew 19:19
Honour your father and mother. Love your neighbour as yourself.’ “

Matthew 22:39
A second is equally important: `Love your neighbour as yourself.’

Mark 12:31
The second is equally important: `Love your neighbour as yourself.’ No other commandment is greater than these.”

Luke 10:27
The man answered, ” `You must love the Lord your God with all your heart, all your soul, all your strength, and all your mind.’ And, `Love your neighbour as yourself.’ ”

Romans 13:9
For the commandments against adultery and murder and stealing and coveting–and any other commandment–are all summed up in this one commandment: “Love your neighbour as yourself.”

Galatians 5:14
For the whole law can be summed up in this one command: “Love your neighbour as yourself.”

James 2:8
Yes indeed, it is good when you truly obey our Lord’s royal command found in the Scriptures: “Love your neighbour as yourself.”

The two very important keywords in all these are. As yourself. God wants us to like and love ourselves. Yet He doesn't think you are doing wrong by not doing so. heaven knows it's hard to like a lot of people most days, let alone ourselves!

Giving you a blanket compliment or leaving just a *hug* wont help. So I'll just be brutally honest.

You are one of the kindest and sweetest people I have ever met. Despite a difficult life, you have emerged like a sunbeam. Shining with a faith and loving and gentle nature that is both beautiful and that I admire and aspire to, greatly. I could never imagine you not being on my flist or not being my friend and I really hope you have the nice dreams soon, that I know you deserve to have. I say this not to make you feel better or to try and pull you out of some sorrowful pit, I say it, cos it's true and sometimes we need to hear the truth. After all, it's such a rare commodity, these days.


Edited at 2010-03-19 09:58 am (UTC)
19th-Mar-2010 11:02 am (UTC)
Jamie, you have been ... and are ... a truly special friend.

Thank you. Yes, it's true that a hug won't help me, as I know I'm a twit! However, I really posted, as I have learnt (the hard way) that not venting makes things bottle up, and then I end up in a rapid downward spiral.

Thank you for those verses - and I hate to admit it, but I had never seen the phrase "as yourself" in there. It is great to see well known scripture through new eyes - Thank you.

You made me cry though, and I thought the tears as I posted were enough ... but you have given me cleansing tears.

I will continue to try to find myself ... and maybe even begin to see what others see in me.

Thank you, more than I can say.

Hugs you back ... see, I said we all need them!
19th-Mar-2010 06:20 pm (UTC)
You are *not* a twit at all. It is very brave to open yourself up and share stuff like this. I think you're epic. *hugtight* I'm so glad you hunted me down and friended me a little over a year ago!
19th-Mar-2010 08:01 pm (UTC)
Jamie, it is me that's the lucky one - that you accepted the friending - and have become not just a name on the LJ, but a friend, who I am honoured to know is also a "brother".
19th-Mar-2010 08:19 pm (UTC)
You;re way too sweet *smish*
19th-Mar-2010 11:27 am (UTC)
When I'm stressed out, my dreams are violent and scary. I wake up in the middle of them. I remember the horror of them cause they are so strong. A few years ago, I began forcing myself to realize I am dreaming and that the horrible things going on are not real. Otherwise I wake up tired and stressed out even more.

You have a lot of things going on in your life at the moment that worry you. It might help if you meditate before going to sleep. Put good thoughts in your mind and tell yourself that things will improve. A better mind set before going to sleep might help.
19th-Mar-2010 11:46 am (UTC)
I think what doubly annoyed me is that I never remember any "good" dreams - why do I only remember the stressful ones!

Oh, yes, life is busy here, so I must expect my subconscious to be busy as well!!

Thanks Kuda, great thought. A bit of Spuffy, and prayer is a great way to relax before sleep.
19th-Mar-2010 01:11 pm (UTC)
My brain does the same thing. It's very frustrating. I hope you have a wonderful weekend!
19th-Mar-2010 07:59 pm (UTC)
Thanks Jerusha - I hope that your weekend goes well, too, as I know that things are sad in the family at presnet.
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19th-Mar-2010 07:58 pm (UTC)
Thank you. Just having friends have really helped - And I am more positive than I have been in the past year - I think that accepting and posting, rather than brooding, was what I needed to do ... You know, more Spike, less Angel!

Hugs you back.
19th-Mar-2010 04:38 pm (UTC)
Ihave nothing to add to the beautiful comments made here before especially the one made by Jaded_Jamie. But I like to let you know that I'll be thinking of you and sending peaceful thoughts to you. Hope that they will make you feel better. Have a great weekend celebrating Tim and Claire's anniversary and relax

19th-Mar-2010 07:57 pm (UTC)
Thank you!

But I am more positive than I have been in the past year (I realised how a long history of injury and illness knocked me back terribly ... the short version!) - I think that accepting and posting, rather than brooding, was what I needed to do ... You know, more Spike, less Angel!

Yes, I'm looking forward to a happy weekend celebrating - they are so, so happy. It is their 20th anniversary, which is why they wanted this.
19th-Mar-2010 06:35 pm (UTC)
A dream told does not come true!

Hang on in there

You've come so far and achieved so much!

And you're a good person

Don't forget it
19th-Mar-2010 07:54 pm (UTC)
Actually this was someone pointing out the truth of my past! Not a future dream, but one of taunting - so harder to escape as I know it's true!

But I am more positive than I have been in the past yaer - I think that accepting and posting, rather than brooding, was what I needed to do ... You know, more Spike, less Angel!

Thank you - you're a good friend.
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21st-Mar-2010 02:16 pm (UTC)
Thanks - I had actually gone back on my f-list as I only am sneeking a few mins on Dad's pc ... so had seen it.

Some good thoughts, thanks for that post.

Great weekend ... so far! Hope yours is going well.
20th-Mar-2010 03:34 pm (UTC)
Have a wonderful weekend and anniversary celebration!

21st-Mar-2010 02:17 pm (UTC)
I'm having a good weekend - a post to follow yomorrow.

Hope you are having a fun time, as well.
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