but
... the good news is that I am aware of it!
Sounds silly - but having had the year I had last year, where I drifted more than anything, I am pleased to notice that I am unhappy. Well, I have often commented how weird I am.
I have also gone back to the head-banging (good thing at this rate I am single!!!!), which is the way I used to deal with stress, but was absent last year.
So I am positive about the negative!!