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Honest - I Am Alive 
29th-Aug-2018 06:27 pm
James - buzz cut & name.
I know, the days have literally disappeared ... I have hated not being abole to get to LJ, but there again, if I hadn't let something go, everything would have gone!!





Over the last 6 weeks I have been working more hours than normal. Up till then in 2018 I had only been doing 3 mornings a week. I will admit not great for the bank balance, but it has meant I have been able to relax and heal ... both from the sinus infection that I had over the winter that wouldn't settle, as well as from the last few years. I was able to come off the anti-depressants I had been on, so all in all it was good. I had money from Mum & Dad and in many ways didn't want it to just disappear on normal life, but it was nice that they continued to cushion me.



However a couple of months ago 2 ladies on reception started maternity leave, and one left ... with no cover, so as I know the dept I was asked if I could just help out a couple of times ... which has led to a full day and 2 half days a week. It has been weird to be doing receptionist work, but I have loved it. Next week a new receptionist starts, however the team leader is going to get me extra training, and then I will continue to do the extra days as a clerical assistant. Mum will be spinning in her grave at that. I am very disorganised, find written English grammatically a problem - and can't spell. So all in all not the choice I would have made, yet I am able to continue to work with people I like, on the days I want ... and all as a member of Bank staff, so I can have the time of I want. I am so, so thankful for this. For me it's an answer to prayer ... that I didn't even know I made.



On my days off, as I have posted a bit, I have managed to get away on a day a week with Christine, as she has been on holiday. We joined the National Trust at Easter and have enjoyed seeing the Stately Homes in the area.



Due to the work & the trips my gym has been cut down, although I have still managed to get there most weeks ... in fact I went this afternoon!



Last week, on the Saturday, I also met up with Brenda at one, to celebrate her birthday, so that was fun, as well. However she persuaded me to go up there for Sunday lunch a few days back, to properly celebrate, as Tim & Claire had invited themselves for the weekend as well. So we could all be together - both to hear Nick preach at their Church, and also for the meal ... although it worked out that Dan had to work, so I saw him when I arrived and just as I left. I hadn't wanted to g as I have realised over the last year that it is their attitude that has caused me much of my stress and depression. They love to be the centre of attention ... and, in fact, I really noticed this at Dad's 90th birthday gathering back in 2014, and hated that they did that to Dad. Now that Mum & Dad are no longer here then it is me that has been pushed out of any get-togethers, by myself. However, as it worked out, they wanted to see Andrew's holiday photos from USA, and although they never want to see mine, I was happy to go along with it, as it was a trip to see places that I have been to, or are on my bucket list. It was lovely to see Andrew's photos ... a lot of sight-seeing, although in places like San Francisco, different places than I had been to!!



As an update to the family ...



Jiffy has got tummy problems. He started having diarrhoea about a month ago, and has had 2 weeks of antibiotics with no real help. So over the last few days I have had to collect samples and that is now being sent off to be tested. I just hope and pray they find something, as I worry there could be something more serious going on. Marni has checked him out thoroughly, but we need answers for him. He hasn't lost his appetite and still likes a good sniffy-walk. I feel sorry that my extra shifts have meant he has been alone more. However as he is over 12 now, he does tend to snooze a lot, anyway.



Nick has stared back at work last night, his first shift since before Christmas, due to mental health issues. He is now working for a different care company - this one gives end-of-life care to people in their homes, whereas he had worked in a Dementia Care Home last year. Brenda is now working at a nursery linked to a school, so great to have the work she loves, plus the school holidays.



Andrew continues his work as an accountant of a firm that sells spice, Dan is now doing an apprenticeship at a Travel Agents and Tom starts an apprenticeship as an Accountant next week. Joe takes his GCSEs next year ... so only the one at school now.



Tim & Claire continue in their jobs of many years. Although they are less than a mile away I never see them, although they have invited themselves round for a meal in October ... so that means I will have to clean the house!!



On the 9th I am off on my travels again ... well, unless Jiffy needs treatment. I am going for 10 days to Europe ... Vienna, Prague & Budapest. 3 cities I have always wanted to visit, so I am looking forward to it.



I am managing to do a bit of icon-making, but not much, as I get so, so tired in an evening. I have also tried to keep a jigsaw going, in the hope of a change of focus from time to time. However anything more focussed like knitting has had to be again put on the back burner.



Oh well, hope you weren't bored by the ramble, but wanted people to know I hadn't forgotten you ... just that life was taking over again. Sorry





Wow ... wonder if you managed all that!
Comments 
29th-Aug-2018 06:08 pm (UTC)
Good to see you around!
1st-Sep-2018 02:34 pm (UTC)
Thanks - it will be a bit intermittant, but at least admitting that to myself helped!!

*hugs*
29th-Aug-2018 07:13 pm (UTC)
A friend of mine, a former staff nurse, became a ward clerk after illness made it difficult to carry on nursing - and she loves it, too.

Your stately home visits over the summer have been a pleasure for me - thank you for sharing them :)

How sad to realise that one bit of the family is unbalancing things like that.

I relly hope that, at about the pudding point when they invite themselves to you for a meal in October, you tell them which day in November you will be going to theirs for dinner...

I do hope Jiffy recovers quickly and it turns out to be nothing serious.

(PS - are you OK to do the photo-scavenger prompts for September?)

1st-Sep-2018 02:26 pm (UTC)
Thanks - I am really enjoying the receptionist work ... still with the patients, and again, clinic hours!!

I am glad you enjoyed the photos I got to post ... a few un-posted houses are up on Instagram, so head there (or they copy to Facebook), so a couple of other places.

Actually I was going to message you as I realised what I had done as I was catching up with myself this week - any chance we can swap and I do October ... sorry it's a bit late in asking.

*hugs*
1st-Sep-2018 05:31 pm (UTC)
Just checked with Ysilme as she is October, and she said she is fine to swap and do September if you do October, so all sorted.
1st-Sep-2018 06:49 pm (UTC)
Oh thanks - I saw a post from her, so thought it was you that was next month, otherwise I would have messaged her ... thanks for sorting it.
30th-Aug-2018 06:44 am (UTC)
It’s good to see you posting and the work situation sounds ideal. Families push our buttons but it sounds like you are getting better at coping with it all. *hugs*
1st-Sep-2018 02:36 pm (UTC)
Thanks - it will be a bit intermittent, but at least admitting that to myself helped!!

Yes, realising what was stressing me out about Tim helped ... not that I can d anything about it, but at least I know it is happening!

*hugs*
30th-Aug-2018 03:39 pm (UTC)
Wow! So, all in all, it sounds like things are going well for you. As long as the extra work hours don't affect your health. Thanks for catching us up on your life.
1st-Sep-2018 02:36 pm (UTC)
Thanks - it will be a bit intermittent, but at least admitting that to myself helped!!

Hope all is well with you

*hugs*
30th-Aug-2018 08:09 pm (UTC)
It's really good to hear from you! I'm glad that you're able to do work with people that you like on the days that you want!
1st-Sep-2018 02:39 pm (UTC)
Thanks - it will be a bit intermittent, but at least admitting that to myself helped!!

Hope all is well with you

*hugs*
30th-Aug-2018 09:25 pm (UTC)
I want to hug you so tight. I miss you so very much. My life is incomplete without hearing from you. Neither of us are online as much as we once were and it does effect me. I just miss you so very much.

Family - What can you do? You love them and can't smack them even if you really want to do it. My brother was very much all about his self and his family. He thought nothing of telling me what to do, how to spend my money and live my life. To keep peace for my mom I would grind my teeth and not say anything. He never saw me as an adult and tried to force me to do whatever he thought was best. I can't say I really miss him.

Poor Jiffy. Does he need a different diet now that he is older? Maybe his tummy can't deal with treats as he did in the past.

I'm happy you have more work. There are jobs I have problems doing since I can't spell to save my life. I love what I do now, but I have a few co-workers who make life difficult. I just try to work around them and do the best I can.

Love you.
1st-Sep-2018 02:47 pm (UTC)
Thanks - it will be a bit intermittent, but at least admitting that to myself helped!! I will admit that I am really missing you ... and in knowing you aren't always there I am less likely to post. I wish that pond wasn't between us both.

Discovering what Tim was doing to Mum & Dad some years ago, and then realising I have taken that on now has helped ... I can't do anything, but at least I know why I get stressed in preparation!! The sad thing is that the last Christmas Mum was alive she said to both Tim & Claire that they must never forget that I will be alone and need "looking after" ... they promised that would happen ... and my comments were that Mum was being silly, as it would be fine,. Maybe she saw more than she admitted.

I am just praying that Jiffy is just not shaking off the infection he picked up. He doesn't have as many treats as when M&D were alive ... and won't eat many, so I don't think it's that. But all I can do is love him, and wait and pray at this point.

Glad you are enjoying work ... although I like the dept I work in there are a couple of the team who wind me up something chronic. I tend to say they are "clipboard" holders ... they love to look busy and important, but when it comes down to it, they don't do anything at all!!

*hugs* and *hugs* again
1st-Sep-2018 12:27 am (UTC)
Well, at least you haven't been bored! And if it's any consolation to you, I haven't had time to post anything since January... So you're doing pretty good in comparison!
1st-Sep-2018 02:38 pm (UTC)
Thanks - it will be a bit intermittent in my posting, but at least admitting that to myself helped!! I used to be so good ... hope you manage to catch up with things and that all is well with you

*hugs*
2nd-Sep-2018 08:29 pm (UTC)
For me it's an answer to prayer ... that I didn't even know I made.
:D And as a former receptionist, I wholeheartedly approve. <3


Good to 'see' you again, and hope things keep getting better (Jiffy especially).
16th-Sep-2018 09:56 pm (UTC)
*waves hi*
Still on LJ (just a bit late).
Good luck for Jiffy. My tom-cat is ill, too. The normal vet didn't find a thing first.
*hugs*
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