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Me Versus Mum-Me 
11th-Oct-2016 08:28 pm
I have been "haunted" by the fence painting.  I have started it twice, and each time have found it frustrating, how much time I spend, yet still have loads to do.

So, as I will eventually getting some money from Mum & Dad's house I decided to hire someone to do the painting, so I know it's done.  I have workmen coming to fit out my spare room, and do a cupboard in my kitchen, so decided I needed to get the constant pressure of the fences done, so I can concentrate on my indoor DIY.

However since I booked it for next week, all I can hear is mum telling me I am wasting money when I could do them myself.  Yes, she's right, but I just wasn't getting it sorted, so was worried that having this hanging over me, I would never get anything done.

So, sorry Mum, but I need to get the work done, so I can have life sorted out a bit more.

And before you say anything, yes, I know I am a fool, but I still feel guilty.  Especially as Tim always moaned at me when I used to say I felt guilty over the past years.

So, even though I feel wrong, I am fighting back to get my life a bit more positive ... aiming for a lot of the work done by Christmas.
11th-Oct-2016 08:31 pm (UTC)
I think that's a great idea - and it means you can concentrate on your health. You still aren't 100% and getting something out of the way will be a weight off your mind. Go you!
12th-Oct-2016 06:43 pm (UTC)
I still hate thinking of my own weeknesses .... even after all these years it still seems wrong to give in to things.

Overall I hope that by Christmas I will feel more "together"
11th-Oct-2016 09:03 pm (UTC)
Good for you for making this decision. Having these things done will be a relief.
12th-Oct-2016 06:44 pm (UTC)
Thanks - am hoping by Christmas that much of my house will be organised, so the new year can start with a flourish!
11th-Oct-2016 09:14 pm (UTC)
Hey! The painter gets paid, you get the fence done, everyone's happy. As the wife of a builder we'd be in a right state if everyone did their own home maintenance so pat yourself on the back for boosting the economy and sprucing up your environment!
12th-Oct-2016 06:46 pm (UTC)
I can assure you that when I get to the last bit - the hall stairs & landing, there is no way I will even attempt it. I think I feel bad about this is that twice I have started the job, and it's my brain not coping, not the job itself.
12th-Oct-2016 06:07 pm (UTC)
Just (((hugs))) No judgement. I get it!
12th-Oct-2016 06:47 pm (UTC)
Thank you ... *hugs* back
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