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Well I Made It!! 
2nd-Jan-2016 04:20 pm
Hardest thing - live in the world
As my Daily Bible Reading reminded me today - "God, you have put my life back together" (Psalm 4).  As I type this I realise that I am having a "normal" day.  In fact my whole week has been pretty easy.

Today I have taken Jiffy for a walk, done some shopping, eaten dinner, done some sorting, and now I have pc time.  Just one year ago today I was nursing a very sick Mum ... she had C Diff, a urine infection and flu.  However as there was an NHS crisis, and I am a nurse, she stayed home ... until 3 days later when the doctor realised she was getting rapidly worse.

Almost 4 weeks of hospital and she came home, and it was then I realised how week he was.  It was a long year, as I look back on it ... but at the time, day by day, it was just something I needed and wanted to do.

Over this last year I have not been around much, but when I have the love and support from many of you has been amazing.  However, for those  who were concerned, let me assure you that if I had to re-do this year I would.  Yes, it was frustrating, tiring, lonely, but I am glad I did it.

I still feel really in limbo about Mum, but know that I will come to terms with things in my own time.

Dad seems to be slowly settling into his new home ... when I went in yesterday he was telling me about some discussion that he and a couple of the other men had over lunch.  It didn't make much sense to me, but he seemed happy, so that is the main thing.  Jiffy is more settled.  He has a couple of favourite walks, and enjoys deciding which one to go on, and he certainly knows where his treats are stored!

I have managed to sort out my bedroom this week, as I had to amalgamate 2 sets of clothes, 2 sets of jewellery, etc.  So at least that seems "me" now.  I know that soon we will have to sell Mum & Dad's, but I am having a couple of weeks off of even thinking about that.

So, now I am in 2016, and like last year I don't know what it will hold.  However I do know that the support of friends, and with God's strength I will get through it.

Happy New Year to you all.
Comments 
2nd-Jan-2016 04:42 pm (UTC)
Stay strong.
9th-Jan-2016 01:48 pm (UTC)
Thank you - hope all well with you.
9th-Jan-2016 06:31 pm (UTC)
I'm doing better now with antibiotics for a bad throat infection.
2nd-Jan-2016 06:03 pm (UTC)
Happy new year to you too! I hope 2016 is a better one for you!
9th-Jan-2016 01:49 pm (UTC)
Thank you - best wishes for a good year to you, as well.
2nd-Jan-2016 07:18 pm (UTC)
I'm so delighted to read that you have finally had a normal day and a fairly easy week. This past year has been so hard for you. I hope and pray that 2016 will be so much easirt for you on every level
9th-Jan-2016 01:51 pm (UTC)
Thank you - yes, when I realize I am having a "normal" day I get excited ... it was certainly a long year in 2015!
2nd-Jan-2016 07:24 pm (UTC)
I am really pleased for you reaching 'normal day' level!
9th-Jan-2016 01:51 pm (UTC)
Thank you - yes, when I realize I am having a "normal" day I get excited ... it was certainly a long year in 2015!
2nd-Jan-2016 10:02 pm (UTC)
You had an incredibly tough year. I cannot but feel that things will look up soon.

I'm in awe of your strength. Yes, have a Happy New Year, dear Deb.
9th-Jan-2016 01:52 pm (UTC)
Thank you - yes, when I realize I am having a "normal" day I get excited ... it was certainly a long year in 2015!

Thank you - all you can do is just keep going, as I know you understand! Best wishes for 2016
3rd-Jan-2016 09:07 am (UTC)
I'm glad you are getting back into a routine now. Are you living back at your own house or still at your parents?
9th-Jan-2016 01:53 pm (UTC)
Thanks - getting there.

No, fully at my place now, which Jiffy has taken a bit of getting used to.
3rd-Jan-2016 04:12 pm (UTC)
God bless you, Deb. Here's hoping 2016 will bring you peace and happiness.

*hugs*
9th-Jan-2016 01:53 pm (UTC)
Thank you - and the same lovely wish returned to you.
3rd-Jan-2016 08:18 pm (UTC)
I'm glad you have got some sort of normal back after such an overwhelming year. Small steps and one day at a time, take things at your own pace and don't get pushed into doing things you're not ready to do. *hugs*
9th-Jan-2016 01:54 pm (UTC)
Thank you - yes, when I realize I am having a "normal" day I get excited ... it was certainly a long year in 2015!

Trouble is that whenever I look around, or think of mum & Dad's place I know how much there is to do, and the small steps theory goes out of the window!
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